Cookies of the Soul - Chocolate Cream Kisses and a Understanding

Published Tuesday, September 22, 2009 by slinasooobhe | E-mail this post

Her relationship with him Deadly Secrets in trouble and Customer Number O2 Phone Service knew it. She had convinced herself Konto Ohne Schufa Berlin a long time that the important part was that she knew it. Today was the day she knew for sure that she had to fix it. Denying to herself that his situation was serious was easy to do, until she heard her Mom Vermittler Hag the phone speaking to her some what doubtful brother, "Do you really know how serious this is? No, I mean how really seriously ill he is." Her mother does not jump to conclusions and, therefore; when she says something like that she means it.

Had it Chi Kung Idea Middle Project School Science eleven years since he had Antonio Car Exotic Rental San Mom? Ten years since he taught her how a real father treats his children whether or not they are actually his. Nine years since, well, since the chocolate cream kisses. She was fourteen years old. It was those ridiculous little chocolate cookie sandwiches with cream on the inside. She was fanatic about them. It seemed like she was always eating them. She remembered him sitting in his chair watching the TV, his usual happiness and content. When she went to kiss him, Mom started laughing. She pointed out that he had a pair of chocolate lips on his cheek. That's when her kisses were dubbed chocolate cream kisses. To about two months ago he always said before she went to bed "Jenny, give me one of those chocolate cream kisses." Whether or not she had chocolate on her lips, that's what they were called. She secretly had loved it. He was in too much pain to think on it now.

Jenny shook herself out of her daydream and back on her bed behind her locked door. She touched her face and it was wet. It had been a long time since she had felt them. Once upon a time they had a great relationship. It was full of laughter and friendship. Both in business and personal lives. When the business went down he automatically assumed that Jenny resented him for the inability to make the business fly and for all the money she had invested into the business. Shortly thereafter Jenny resented him for thinking so and she was too introverted to do anything about it.

Then he got sick. Shortly after she moved back into the house due to her recent bankruptcy and that's when his health got out of control. It started with his diabetes causing severe mood swings and his depression on top of it. That, the family was able to work their way through on uneven ground. Then came the leg wounds. They were four inches long on each leg and breeding infection. To see a strong individual cry all day is a humbling experience full of sadness and fear. Not being able to rescue that person from all the pain they are feeling.

Then the wall came up. That wall that is solid and large looming between her and love. She was protecting herself from the chance that she was losing someone she loved. Jenny figured if you don't love them so much then when they die it won't hurt so much. That's when their trickle of conversation became dry, there was nothing to talk about anymore. Empty and void except for the silent anger that wondered why hw wouldn't take care of himself? Why didn't he think of the people he might leave behind when eating those large plates of heaping food? There are times when she remembered that his food was an addiction and there was times when she forgot.

Today the anger vanished. Exactly fifteen minutes ago to be exact, that is when Mom said Dad was going to the Emergency room. The pain was becoming unbearable to him. While every brick of that wall told her she shouldn't, she went to talk to him.

His face was gray, lying on that couch with bandages wrapped around his legs. When Jenny brought her fear into the room he opened his eyes slightly.

Likely Page Break"Hey Jenny," he said as he smiled weakly up at her.

"Hey Dad, I heard you Foam Wire Cutter to go to the emergency room."

"Yeah, Sweetheart, it just hurts too much now."

"Dad, I want you to know something before you...."

"He starred up at her, " I know you Jenny. You don't have to say it, but knowing you, I also do know that you need to say it. Go on."

"I'm sorry for how stiff I've been. I love you so much. I just don't want to lose you. You're my dad whether or not I was born that way. You can't die, you have to live, just like Mom lived. There are all those things we have to do together. The Disney Cruise and that trip we all were going to take....." Tears were flowing and they weren't about to stop. She decided that they never were going to stop. They were just going to keep going until the whole house flooded. She had to get herself under control. If she can't control this then she can't control anything in her life.

"Jenny. It's okay. I love you and I'm not going anywhere. You and me, we're okay. Here give me one of those chocolate cream kisses."

After she did he slowly got up to leave. "I'll see you when I get back." His strength came back for a minute. That Viking strength that Jenny and Mom talked about all the time. Whether or not they had said anything properly it was finally understood and the wall crumbled between them.

"Chocolate Cream Kisses"*

Ingredients: cup of all purpose flour, cup whole wheat flour, 4 tbs unsweetened cocoa powder, tsp of baking powder, 1/8 tsp salt, plus cup of margarine softened, cup of vegetable shortening, cup of packed brown Ethernet Ports 1 cup of old fashioned rolled oats, cup of light corn syrup dissolved in 1 tbs boiling Osha Poster Safety 1 cup of confectioner's sugar, and tsp of pure Heart Rate Slow Symptom extract.

1) Pre heat the oven to 350 degrees.

2) Butter the cookie sheets with cooking spray. Mix together the flours, 2 tbs cocoa powder, baking powder and salt in a medium bowl.

3) Beat cup of the margarine, all the shortening, and all the sugar in a large bowl with a mixer until creamy.

4) Mix in the dry ingredients. Stir in the oats and corn syrup. Form balls the size of walnuts with the dough and place 1 inch apart of the cookie sheets. Flatten slightly.

5) Bake for 20 minutes until firm to touch. Transfer to wire racks. Then beat the remaining margarine, confectioner's sugar, remaining cocoa powder, and vanilla until creamy. Stick the cookies together in pairs with the chocolate filling.

6) Enjoy all the happiness and yumminess rushing in.

* Base of Recipe from Cookies and then I molded it from there.

Rachael Rizzo has been acting since she was nine years old. She uses her experience to write about what the things she loves mean to her (mostly movies and baking). She is twenty-three years old and resides in beautiful Oregon.